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When it rains…it pours!!

Hey all!! Here I am, yet again…apologizing for my lack of consistency. There’s been a lot going on and my heart just hasn’t been in a sharing mood as of late. Here’s a quick rundown of what’s been happening:

  • My most recent employer moved his company to Long Island (which left me jobless)
    Due to a lack of budgeting and saving for a rainy day…I got evicted from my apartment with my elderly mother and my two kids
    Currently living in a shelter with my family
    95% of my belongings are split between two storage units that I can barely afford (consolidating them wouldn’t solve the immediate problem)
    I have been searching for a job for the last 6 months with no real prospects in sight (I even applied to fast food restaurants but was told on more than one occasion that I am overqualified)
    My depression and anxiety are getting the better of me (suffering from depression for 15 years; recently became aware of my anxiety)
    I’ve gained 30 lbs over the course of the last three months due to stress-eating
    Considered becoming a stripper, online sex worker AND a sugar baby while I continue my employment search (I still have bills to pay)
    Felt the extreme need to write all of this down because I’m honestly on the brink of a mental breakdown and suicidal thoughts have began creeping their way into consciousness

Now that I’ve gotten all of that off of my chest, please understand that I am in no way promoting suicide. I believe that therapy is necessary and that it can help prevent a lot of things. Had I taken my mental health more seriously, and continued seeing my therapist, I might have been able to avoid this downward spiral.

The information below is for anyone who is considering suicide; who may feel like their family and friends are better off without them; who thinks they don’t matter.

You do matter!! Your family and friends need you!! SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER!! Your feelings are valid and you are not alone. There is help out there for you!

The End (of July) Is Nigh!!!!

Hey there! I hope July has been a fruitful month for you. It has been a little rollercoaster-ish on my end; but I understand that the highs and lows are necessary to achieve my goals. (That sounded so profound and inspirationalšŸ˜‚)

Anywho…..I told you guys I would give you a comprehensive list of the awesome organizational apps I’ve found and have implemented into my life. That post is currently being edited and will be up on Wednesday.

This post is really just a quick check in. To make sure all 7 of you are still rocking with me. LolšŸ˜…

Enjoy this beautiful Monday, don’t let anyone or anything steal your joy, and remember that Friday is only 4 days away.



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